If you were not gone...

Looking at how happy people invite their second or third kid into their family, instantly i felt guilty,sad or rather mixed feelings.

If you were not gone,you would be a little older than one month old already. You would be loved by us and Vera will be promoted to be an elder sister.She will be less lonely and shoulders more responsibility. You will bring us sleepless nights and bring love into the house. 

But..... that can only occur if and only if nothing has happened.

For whereever you are baby,be happy and be an angel  

Love,
Mummy