Well, just felt abit tired of the whole thing of admitting and discharging in the hospital. The whole cycle is tedious and time-consuming because admission office works at a turtle speed.
Also the thought of staying in the hospital just makes me feel sick again. The smell of the medicine is suffocating.
Miss the times I be with Vera too. Like to sleep with her. Like to make her laugh by tickling her and let her lie with me and watch youtube video on my iphone.
I miss the times with hubby too. It's like all his time and energy is for work, little time for Vera and no time for me. I know work is important. I think family is more so.
There is no other choice right? I am already half way there. The procedure will just get shorter and shorter. I reckon the side effects will get stronger and stronger because the body is getting weakened?
Sometimes it is very hard to be optimistic. So I can only rely on photos to remind myself who am I fighting for and whether it is worth it.
Quite a few people I met told me I look good for a patient. Mind over body! When I am out of hospital I am with my loved ones, I am happy and I feel good. All nauseousness is gone, I don't even want to sleep just to spend time with my family and friends. Nobody except Vera can match up to my energy level. lolx.
I don't know what this post is leading too.
Just random thoughts.
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