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My New Look

Decides to venture into a whole new look.

New hairstyle (actually is new wig)

New spectacles (for photo-taking purpose)

And a .....

New dress (from a friend Pauline who gave me a bright yellow dress to congratulate for my recovery)

*roll red carpet*

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*Drums rolls*

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TADAH!

Happy Four Months

I am officially in my 4th month of remission.

And yes I am still working, living like a normal person (except for that wig). I still shop like I have tons of fortune. I still dress up and put on make up. I still eat what I like, less the seafood and sashimi.

I have made some lifestyle changes in the hope of being able to be in this world a little longer to see my girl grows up into a beautiful girl and gets married to a fabulous guy, giving birth to a dozen of babies.

I also occasionally ponder on how can I maximise my time in this world to give good to the society? Maybe volunteering?

Random post: I love you

I wana walk with you forever.

Family photo

Updates

A few updates for my blog:

• Removed chatbox - Too many spam messages. So for any comments (for whoever that is still reading this blog) kindly post it within the posts.
• Pictures gone - The pictures were synced to my mobile and I accidentally deleted them thinking why were there so many photos in my gallery. Any kind souls who can fix this please let me know. I will be indebted to you for rest of my life. (Just kidding)

If you were not gone...

Looking at how happy people invite their second or third kid into their family, instantly i felt guilty,sad or rather mixed feelings.

If you were not gone,you would be a little older than one month old already. You would be loved by us and Vera will be promoted to be an elder sister.She will be less lonely and shoulders more responsibility. You will bring us sleepless nights and bring love into the house. 

But..... that can only occur if and only if nothing has happened.

For whereever you are baby,be happy and be an angel  

Love,
Mummy

Hello Hair

It has been 2 months since I completed my chemotherapy. And the most exciting part of the recovery is that my hair is beginning to grow! Still as soft as ever hehe..

But the front of my head really not alot of hair :( Think I have balding front haha...

I wonder when can I muster the courage to go out without a wig. I would love that to happen. With a cool short hairstyle!

For now, the only complain I have is that I have to wipe my hair again. No more one sweep of the towel and it is dry. And I am starting to use A LITTLE BIT of shampoo to wash my hair. When I was botak I will use facial foam to wash my scalp, since the scalp is part of the face hahaha.. (That's what I read online la)

Ahh... we have hair!

Top View

Ally's wedding

Just attended Ally's wedding at Hotel Fort Canning.

She is one of the first few persons I know in my office when I just entered the company. A soft spoken but can be quite stubborn at times. Very kind and friendly.

I am so happy for her. She bought a house and finally got married :)

Have a blissful marriage, ALLY!

Business Class!

We got upgraded into Business class while on the way back from Hong Kong! So happy :)

Cathay Pacific actually have overbooked by 30% and just nice there was full attendance so they asked if we mind waiting for 4 hours but have a free upgrade to Business Class and also HKD 500 and HKD 250 for adult and kid respectively as compensation.

Of course, we accepted! hahahaha.. Ok I am such a cheapo. I always take budget and this is the first time I am on business class!

Totally satisfied with the food. There was a menu and it states the appetiser, main course and dessert for the day. There is also free chocolates for us to eat. The food is not like those lunch box kind we get in the economy class. And the seats can lie down 180 degrees.

And Business Class has priority queue when boarding and alighting the plane. So SHIOK LOR!

Spacious seat

HK Big Buddha - 4th Day 21.04.2012

Decided to skip the third day of HK trip (Disneyland) because it is all in my daughter's blog. Anyway that Disneyland trip was not very fruitful because it was raining.

So I shall blog about my trip to Big Buddha on 21.04.2012. Surprisingly, the weather was very good despite the weather forecast said that it will rain on that day too :(

We went to this restaurant for lunch with my hubby's friend who is based in Hong Kong. Apparently this is a very famous restaurant and require advanced booking. Located at Central MTR nearby. Hubby told me that he read the history and the boss started as those push cart seller and now has a whole building as its restaurant. Amazing! Price not cheap though.

Then after lunch, we decided to proceed to Lantau Island to visit the Big Buddha. The view is really magnificient on the cable car and at the Buddha top.

Photos below show the views from cable car:

Mountains

These house must have good fengshui

See the stairs!

 

We should all climb up there though it was very tiring. But it was fruitful and the air is wonderful.

Note the couple suit haha

Up on the mountain

2nd Day Hong Kong

Initial plan was to go to Disneyland but because of the rain, we decided to shop at CityGate Outlet and also take a walk at the Star Walk. The wet weather just spoil all our plans of the day :(

Restaurant for dimsum breakfast

Early morning so many people in the restaurant!

My Darling

The star walk

Recovery Trip HongKong - Day 1 (18 April 2012)

Ever since I had cancer, I realised how short life is and I kept pestering my hubby to bring me on a "recovery trip". Hence, we decided on HONG KONG!

It's not my first time there but considering bringing my in-laws and Vera, I try to go somewhere like Singapore. Where transportation is easy, food is accessible and water is clean.

We booked the air tickets during the NATAS fair on zuji.com and each ticket only $380 on Cathay Pacific. We also stayed in Metropark Mongkok Hotel. The hotel room is relatively spacious given how squeezy this city is. And only 3 minutes walk to the MTR station (Prince Edward Station). There are alot of food nearby although we really don't know where to eat. The Hong Kong cafe are not to our taste :(

The MTR is also very long compared to Singapore's MRT. I think the trains are twice the length of MRT? The people there are very impatient and not service orientated. They can throw the bill and plates at you. If you ask them more questions they will give you a black face and impatient look. I think it is the highly stressful life that they stay in. Imagine a city so crowded and living standards so high, it is quite normal to be so "pek cek".

Oh yah the MTR never break down and the frequency is very fast. Just that the stations are VERY troublesome for kids with strollers because most of the time, we had to use the stairs. Even if there are escalators, the Hong Kongers would be so pissed that we occupy the whole escalator with our strollers.

My first airplane since my honeymoon... 2.5 years!

My hotel room.. Metropark Mongkok

Our view from our room. Houses very old.

Took the train to go Victoria Peak



Central. On the way to The Peak.



The tram going up the mountain. Very steep. We were literally at 45 degrees

View at The Peak. Very foggy



At The Peak, we went to the Wax Museum to see celebrities.

Angelina Jolie

Brad Pitt. Super handsome!

Andy Lau!



The genius

 It was a super tiring trip even on the first day because we need to carry up and down the stroller at the MTR. Shag.

Genting highland trip 6-8April 2012

Finally went for a trip with my girlfriends after 10 years Of knowing them..

Firstly, I don't have many girlfriends. Secondly, I don't have much money haha.

Anyway it was just a short trip consists of eating, nua-ing and gambling..

We went during the good Friday long weekend and the jam was horrendous!
  

Before set-off at Golden Mile Complex

  

Took this 4D ride. Spent 1 hour queuing for it was a total waste of time.




These pretty ladies came up and we met! Love their cheekiness :)


Overall, it was a nice trip with good weather. I thank my hubby for letting me go on this trip while he takes care of Vera at home hahaha.

First day of work

After 5 months of mc I'm finally working!

First day comes a hell lots of packing and chit chatting.

Was feeling tire after 12 pm. Think still not used to being seated for so long. Felt a little backache. And eyes were a bit tired.

Bought one counter to congratulate I return to work Lolx.

Doc already told me I will feel tired more easily for first two months. It's true for the first day.

Slept at 10pm. Ignoring Vera's request to play.

Bye Bye Cancer, Bye bye CVC line

Have been carrying my CVC line for 4 months. This line is inserted in me and has brought tremendous convenience as there is no more needle poking for blood taking and chemotherapies. Amongst the convenience brings daily inconveniences as taking care of the line requires effort to prevent an infection which can be dangerous as it is close to the heart.

I was so afraid of taking out the line because I'm afraid of the pain. My doctor laughed and said " you have been such a brave girl, why are u afraid of this!!"

It's like a graduation ceremony when the line is taken out. Had a few congratulations from the staff at NCC when they know I'm getting rid of the line. Cheers!!

During the consultation, my doctor called the radiotherapist radiotherapy oncologist and they had an discussion if I should go through radiotherapy. She said my case is so rare (now then I know mine is called Epidural Lymphoma), there is very low sample size or examples to have a treatment enforced. Anyway, long story short, I DO NOT NEED RADIOTHERAPY!

However, I still carry this dormant lymphoma cells in my bone marrow. As long as it doesn't go aggressive, I can still lead a normal life. Chemo only kills aggressive and fast growing cells, so the dormant slow growing cells in my bone marrow is a ticking time bomb in my body.

But it just serves as a  reminder that life is so short that I have to enjoy, live it to the fullest and be happy.

My doctor also said I am very capable, always go and see doctor and do chemo alone. She exclaimed that until now she did not see my husband at all! That was what I was telling my hubby too. After my whole cancer saga, my hubby did not meet my doctor before! OMG!

My parents just drop me off and zoom they go home while it takes the whole day just to see doctor and do chemo. I also think I am very independent. Lolz. Most of the patients I see in NCC, they have a relative or a friend to accompany them, but I am always alone. Not because nobody cares about me but I just feel independent enough to do all these things. It's such a waste of time to wait there and do nothing. Ok. Maybe nobody cares about me hahahha!

My doctor even gave me a letter that states that I can only have light activities. If during work I have backache, I am granted to lie down and rest! Cannot imagine pitching a tent and lie down because of my backache. She asked me to take it easy when I go work because I will feel tired easily and back will get ache if my posture is not right.

Someone was complaining about pre-marriage jitters to me today and I told her, you wouldn't know if it is a mistake if you marry that person until you really marry him or her. Even if it is a mistake, as long as you know you have tried, there is no regrets and it is not the end of the world. Life continues.

We have to strive to be happy. A lot of people carry regrets and after living for 50-60 over years they say their life sucks and they lament about it. I do not want to be in that category of people. It is the most basic and most important need. Whatever you do, make sure you are happy! Smile and life will smile back at you.

How does chemo looks like

Took pictures of my chemo drugs because I do not want to have any encounters with them anymore.

Bye bye chemotherapy! Please do not come into my life again! Bye Cancer!

Drugs is in this purple bag. And through intravenous into me.

Towards Finale!!!

Just one more chemo to go and I'm going back to work soon!

Next week I'm going to stay for 4-5 days and one month later go back for scans and I'm officially in remission!

Suddenly, felt so lost like for these 4 months I have achieved nothing and "holidays" are ending soon. No achievements at all!

But definitely this period of time, I have experienced tremendous amount of love from family n friends and even long lost friends or just strangers whom I just meet during my stays in hospital.

I have also learnt how system in hospital works and how to do all your various claims. (Feel free to ask me)

I also see things in different light. I don't like to waste time listening to cold calls or talk to lor soh people. I take things easy as life is too short. U like that bag, buy it!

Whenever I feel very pek cek I will remind myself this quote "there are many crises in the world, spinach on the wall is not one of them!". This applies to mothers but I think it applies to life too.

I'm definitely cherishing my life more. Stop complaining. Be happy.

Thought of the day

在人世间有那么多牵挂，又怎舍得离开？
可有人却不忍世间残酷，而自行离开。

Infection stay

Have been in the hospital since Sunday. Came in due to infection and fever. But surprisingly when I am in here no bacteria was found in my blood and the fever has subsided. Nonetheless, still had to stay in hospital for observation purpose.

Have decided to stay in here for my last cycle of chemo which is today. Next Monday I have to admit again for my FINALE!

This stay there are three terminal illness patients same ward as me. Two have been lying in bed since. One of them has a nice husband. He told me he cried whenever he sees his wife in pain.

She has breast cancer and spread to brain already.

Makes me wonder why my hubby never cry huh?

I read somewhere that breasts cancer is top for women. And reason being the wired bras that women are wearing nowadays. Especially career women who has to wear it at work for longer hours. Wired bras prevent blood circulation hence may cause cancer.

I like the nurses in ward 48. All already know me and can sometimes tell me stories about other patients.